Ever have that feeling that you don't fit in? Do you go through day after day at your work and feel there must be something greater and more wonderful than what you are involved in? Are your friends having a great time telling you how goofy you are for seeing the world full of color when all they see is gray? It can be kind of lonely, but it is also the basis for being a creative person. People who have what is called a "divergent personality" are capable of looking at the ordinary in extraordinary ways. In fact, the very things that make you not quite fit in with others are the things that make you capable of this talent! Instead of letting others pull down your self-esteem because you think "outside-the-box" and they can't begin to fathom the things you talk about, begin to see the gifts that are inside you which make you a super-unique, creating being.
Sure, there have been many people over the centuries of art history who have created glorious pieces of artwork and been victims of depression, mania, horrid self-esteem, or other sad situations. A person can certainly create when they are down, so it is by no means a fact that you must be a positive, happy person to be the originator of great art. However, for your own peace of spirit and body, if you truly do feel you are an outside or outcast, that you just can't see the world in the same terms as others you know, that you are made miserable by having to force your behavior and thoughts into the tiny spaces that others give you to breathe, you might just be someone who is bursting at the seams to become a creative force in some new career.
The world is full of people who will do their level best to break you of this belief. Being different means you are a prime target for ridicule. Going your own way in this life means, very often, others will work very hard to make you feel you're nothing but a dreamer, unrealistic, silly, and non-practical. They do this for many reasons, but one strong influence is that a person breaking from the crowd is frightening to others. It causes them to question their own choices and dreams, unfulfilled ideas from their past, and wonder if maybe they should have been as brave. Keeping everyone around them on approximately the same path as they follow means they don't have to second-guess what they've done with their lives. This is their reality, and there is nothing around them to shake that up.
Naturally, there are realities of life to cope with. Bills must be paid, obligations fulfilled, savings should be put away for emergencies. No one says, however, that you can't begin to investigate some new avenues for your creativity in your spare time. If you find something that answers a powerful call in your soul, you can make a career out of it later after some planning. And yes, creativity requires risk. What things in life worth having don't have an element of risk to them?
With only one life to learn and explore this world, it's a long and difficult existence when you’re trying to force down who you truly are to please others. Investigate why you are "different". How do you see the world? Stop allowing people around you to pull you down and make you believe there is something wrong with you. If some can't understand where you are coming from, do an internet search and find those who do. Your ability to see the extraordinary in the mundane aspects of life just might mean there is an artistic talent waiting inside you to bloom!