Loss Of A Child - The First Week
Here are some things that I learned that first week:
There is no “process” for this, no steps to follow or guidelines to obey. It is important to let yourself do whatever it is that you need to do. For example, if you want to walk around aimlessly in your backyard and mumble then do it. If you forgot about doing a load of laundry, don’t worry about it. If you don’t want to answer the phone, it’s ok to let the machine pick it up.
Let other people do it for you. People who care about you want to do anything they can to help. They know they can’t fix your pain. They know words are empty and that a hug is temporary. But they desperately want to do something for you and you need to let them. To this day, I have no idea who folded my underwear and put it away for me that week. I ate because my aunt made me scrambled eggs at 4 o’clock in the afternoon. My surviving daughter was never left unattended because my sister took care of her.
As difficult as it is to ask for help sometimes, now is the time to do it. Tell someone what you might need, like a glass of water that you can’t get yourself because you’re afraid you’ll collapse if you stand up. Or maybe you need to be quiet and want someone to sit next to you, silent.
Pile condolence cards in a basket and read them when you’re ready. It is not a requirement to respond to any of them. Don’t answer the door to receive flowers and gifts. It’s a strain to try and put on a pleasant face to a stranger.
Let yourself cry. Just cry. Sobbing uncontrollably is ok, too. Even yelling and wailing is ok. Who cares if someone hears you? Rock back and forth and hug yourself and cry. When your eyes are too puffy and tired, let someone get you a cool cloth and then rest.
And lastly, breathe. Take a long, deep breath and blow it out hard. Make up a mantra and repeat it to yourself again and again, something like “I will be ok” and then take another nourishing breathe.
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