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It Is Right To Stay Here


Am I crazy to contemplate leaving this life to be with my deceased child? Is it normal to think about taking my own life so that I might find my dear daughter and be together again? Is it ok to want to leave this world to be with her in her new world? If I leave this place, will the pain go away?

These are some of the questions that we ask ourselves many times after our child dies. We want so desperately to be with him or her that we very seriously and consciously mull over the idea of leaving this world. It is a thought process which is a perfect union between logic and emotion. It is very rational and reasonable. It is not a cry for help or cause for alarm when we feel this way. It is simply part of the grieving process.

Emotion: Yes, I could take my own life to be with her again. Easily. Yes, I could leave my family to be with her. After all, she has nobody and they have each other. They donít need me. But she does. And I need her.

Logic: No, I could not leave my living child. No, I have a responsibility to give my beautiful 6 year old a life. I must not desert her and disrupt her life any further that it already has been. Sheís lost her sister and cannot lose her Mom, too.

Emotion and Logic: Maybe Iíll just get sick and die early. That way I can leave without being the cause of it. If I donít take care of myself, who cares? Iíll be that much closer to being with my child again. If I get a serious illness, I wonít fight it. Iíll go quickly and quietly. Then Iíll see her sooner.

Reality: The fact is I have a job to continue to do here on this earth. It is to continue to be a mother to my living child, to carry on the legacy of my lost child and to try the very best I can to honor her life through my actions. She would want her mommy to be strong, healthy and resourceful. She would want me to be Mom to her sister. And she would want me to live each moment as it comes, embracing the sad, the difficult, the lovely and the peaceful. She would want me to smile again, however melancholy that smile might be.

Of course we all want to be with our loved one again. I continue to remind myself that in time I will be with her. This gives me hope and strength. It is hard. Perhaps the alternative, to leave this place, would be easier, but it wouldnít be right.

My own words remind me: my husband and I have always told our children to do the right thing, even when the right thing to do is the hardest.

Being here now and living through this pain is the right thing to do and it is by far the hardest.

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