Guest Author - Lucy Georgiou

I'm scared, that I'll spend my whole life searching and never truly
find. Spend my life believing my feelings, only to find that I missed the
truth somewhere down the line.

Spend my life loving and obeying My Lord, only to fall short and be
condemned to the fires of hell. I'm scared of a Lord that would do such a
thing, if the truth of my soul be known.

Now I don't want to spend another precious moment that I have left here
on earth doubting that God exists, I believe that You do, without a
doubt in my soul, but what God would I make of You?

You are love, first and foremost and all loving elements that follow,
compassion, kindess, forgiveness, and I know that the only fear in my
heart that i have, is that i should ever lose You. That would be a dagger
to my soul.

And how do I please You? by trying to be more like You as best as I
can? in obedience? But then the thought of heaven and hell enters my mind
and I search my mind for a reason to find, why my Father of love would
banish one of His children to the fires of hell for being a mortal
human being?

Some of us Father don't realise, not all of us find a wisdom, not all
of us get it right the first time round.

And if indeed we are given this one life in which to learn and grow,
within the parametres that we have been placed in, then some of us will
surely fall short.

And what of these souls that don't come to You? What of my brothers and
sisters that lead a blinded life, full of sin and evil, never awakening
the truth within them? Will they be punished? Will I be punished for my
own sins?

Will we be made to pay for what society has created? would it not have
been different had our society been far more evolved? and we all grew
knowing the meaning of love, understanding and compassion? Then punish
for what we do not know or have the strength to overcome?

Father you teach us to love our enemies, that if someone strikes us
once, then we should offer the other cheek. And if we are to have this
constant forgiving quality, do You Father have this also? Why then are we
taught of a Lord that punishes us for our sins? Are not some souls more
evolved than others? Are not some souls more in need of love and
understanding than others?

And if we should love our enemies, would You Father do the same? and
should the devil exist, would you love him? And if Lucifer did exist in
heaven and You loved him, why then did love not save the day? why was it
that Our Lord's love could not heal Lucifer of these traits of evil and
jealousy? And why a war in heaven? where You really under threat?
surely not, for surely nothing can harm You.

I have questions Father, unanswered question, and in truth my soul does
not make you a Father of such things.

My Father, My Lord is unique, love without condition, a Lord without
flaws, compassionate and kind without human comprehension. i don't
believe You require us to do anything, for a requirement from us would deem
You dependable and weaken the Lord that I believe You are.

Perfect is your form Father and sometimes I wonder why You created us.
Then I wonder why I would want to give life, to bring forth a child,
and I wonder whether it is because I love my husband so much and have so
much love inside of me that I would wish to share this love .. could
this be your reasoning aswell? That you wanted to share yourself to
experience with your children the perfectness of Your love?

Then I wonder what would my child's purpose be? To be loved without
condition by me and to give that love out freely to others, for my child
would receive it freely from me.

I would be a human God to this child and teach them that I too have a
human mother and father, but collectively, as human beings, we all share
the same Father and come form the same seed. And that Father created us
so that we could share His love. The same way I would give physical
birth to my child, Our Father gives spiritual birth to our souls.

And whatever that child did, whether it be deemed good or bad, I would
continue to love my child without condition and reflect, as best as I
could, my Lord's love unto my child.

How then would I explain to that child the concept of heaven and hell
without igniting fear into my child's heart? would they not then be
introduced to the idea of failure? would that not then manefest negative
thoughts and persceptions, and would that not then change their idea of
Our Ultimate Father?

What kind of God would they then make of You?



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