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Thoughts from the Middle of the Night


When my son was born and I was told he had Down syndrome, I did not cry for a long time. But when I saw a girl walking hand in hand with her little brother to the viewing window of the hospital nursery, I could not hold back my tears. I knew my daughter would never walk with her little brother that way. I knew he would never experience the small pleasures of life I always took for granted. In those minutes my heart was broken and I was overcome with sadness for both my children.

Now, almost six years later, I am filled with pity for the misinformed, heartbroken woman who sat crying in that cold hospital corridor, without hopes, dreams, or fight in her. She was wrong about so many things. That part of me continues to be reeducated: I am grateful for every new lesson I learn.

I am thankful to that woman. She found she did have some fight in her. She was not the first mother to fall in love with her newly-diagnosed child. She learned of brave and stubborn mothers who put themselves forward in the media to spread a message of hope. She let the memories of those mothers stir her into action. I shall always revere the mothers and fathers who reached out a hand, and who built a foundation of support, information, and resources for women like me to draw upon. What they did for their children transformed my son's life. They continue, still looking forward, always reaching back to help others.

I still reach back to the woman I was. I hold her gently and wish that in her grief she could hear me. "It's not like that. Please don't lose yourself in that sadness. Hold on, wait and see. So much of that grief is over things that are just not true." I know she has to sit there crying, and I don't know how long. I will wait with her and be a friend.

My son will be six years old in a month. His sister is seven and a half. When they are not arguing ferociously or ignoring one another, as siblings do, they are the best of friends. They help one another scheme, and protect each other from harm. Both have argued seriously how life for the whole family would be better if the other disappeared, leaving an "only child." Each misses the other when they are separated overnight. I rarely think about the sister and brother walking toward the nursery viewing window, but sometimes when I see my two walking hand in hand down the beach or up a hiking trail, I think of the poor, sad woman I was that day.

I can't imagine life without my son. Sometimes when he barrels into my bedroom early Saturday morning to tell me a great cartoon is on, I wonder what life would be like without little boys. But I get up, and find he has quite good taste in cartoons. I think of him in his preschool days, chin raised in pride over some fabulous work of art, like the turkey he pasted up when he was three. I remember him seeing his good buddy from class, Terrell, at a school carnival, and how their eyes met. They squealed in unison and ran to one another like sweethearts in a perfume commercial.

I enjoy the story his teacher relayed to me about how, during a cookie-baking class, he slyly nibbled his chocolate chips instead of saving them for the cookie. I am glad every day to have this son. The world is a better place with him in it.

My son is not a Down Syndrome "superstar," but I wanted him to have the experience of a regular kindergarten. He loves school and has a wonderful teacher. His classmates are charming and funny and bright. But I was afraid of their parents. My son has missed some fine opportunities because many people are as inexperienced and uninformed as I was six years ago. I believe he needs an edge before he can participate successfully in mainstream activities, and that edge is casual acceptance.

Last night was parent night at my son's kindergarten class. I was overwhelmed by the relaxed but purposeful way different parents let me know that they accept my son simply as a child in the kindergarten class. Their hands reach back to comfort the heartbroken woman in the hospital corridor. They comfort her in ways that I cannot. I thank every person who has brought us all this far. Thank you so much.

Browse at your local bookstore, public library or online retailer for books like Gifts: Mothers Reflect on How Children with Down Syndrome Enrich Their Lives and its companion, Gifts 2: How People with Down Syndrome Enrich the World.

I have been surprised
http://karynslater.wordpress.com/2013/10/17/31-for-21-i-have-been-surprised/

Kindergarten Inclusion Cohort
http://allbornin.org/

Reality 101: Ann-Bailey: What students teach us about community & differences
http://ht.ly/2BNikJ

I used the R-word and it changed my life
http://www.allparenting.com/my-life/articles/971323/i-used-the-r-word-and-it-changed-my-life

To Repeat a Grade - Or Not?
http://www.thesassysoutherngal.com/to-repeat-a-grade-or-not/

Doing Social Justice: Thoughts on Ableist Language and Why It Matters - Rachel Cohen-Rottenberg
http://www.disabilityandrepresentation.com/2013/09/14/ableist-language/

National Center for Prenatal and Postnatal Down Syndrome Resources
http://downsyndromediagnosis.org/

Diagnosis to Delivery: A Pregnant Mother’s Guide to Down Syndrome
by Nancy Iannone and Stephanie Meredith
http://downsyndromepregnancy.org

Loving a Child With Down Syndrome: Far From the Tree Doesn’t Do It Justice
http://www.slate.com/articles/double_x/doublex/2012/11/andrew_solomon_s_far_from_the_tree_parents_children_and_the_search_for_identity.single.html

Far From the Tree: Parents, Children and the Search for Identity
http://tinyurl.com/b864hvx

What to Expect from Your Baby with Down Syndrome
http://babynumber10.blogspot.com/2011/11/what-to-expect-from-your-baby-with-down.html

Kindergarten Update
Amy Julia Becker
http://www.patheos.com/blogs/thinplaces/2011/11/measuring-a-life-or-kindergarten-update/

Nine Myths About Raising a Baby with Down Syndrome
http://www.fudgebananaswirl.com/9-myths-about-raising-a-baby-with-down-syndrome

Life Lessons from Lisa
"... I would like to share five things I have learned in the last year about being a mother of a child with Down Syndrome ..."

http://www.torispelling.com/post/tori-spelling-life-lessons-from-lisa-raising-child-with-down-syndrome

Down Syndrome: Shifting Perspectives at the Dublin Arts Council
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQ61vJdqyWw

What do our children think when they read what we have written about them?
Puget Sound Down Syndrome Buddy Walk - October 6, 2013
http://buddywalk.kintera.org/pugetsound/WWEStarTrekEvanW2013

Dear mom with a prenatal Down syndrome diagnosis
http://sippinglemonade.com/dear-mom-with-a-prenatal-down-syndrome-diagnosis/

The 1000 miles of Luca - A father talks briefly about life with his son who has Down syndrome
http://vimeo.com/84061549

I never thought it would be me
http://notsoordinarydiary.wordpress.com/i-never-thought-it-would-be-me/

Henny Beaumont’s daughter, Beth, has Down’s syndrome – she’s now the star of her mother’s graphic novel about her birth and early years
http://trib.al/1Tsie7V
‘I can’t imagine life without Beth’: Down’s syndrome changed our lives for the better - by Joanna Moorhead
http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2014/sep/27/downs-syndrome-changed-our-lives-for-the-better
A Hole in the Heart: a graphic novel by Henny Beaumont - extract
http://ow.ly/2OiOeG
Excerpt
http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/ng-interactive/2014/sep/27/downs-syndrome-changed-our-lives

10 True Things About the First Year of Parenthood
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/karyn-thurston/10-true-things-about-the-first-year-of-parenthood_b_4254464.html

On Adopting a Baby or Child with Down Syndrome -
by Kari Wagner-Peck
http://huff.to/KA8Xwx
Why I Don't Usually Talk About Our Adoption
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/kari-wagnerpeck/on-adopting-a-kid-with-down-syndrome_b_4608455.html
Read more by Kari Wagner-Peck at her wonderful blog
http://atypicalson.com/

Northwest Center: A Conversation with our Founders
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0R1j4iJiJM0&feature=youtu.be

Keep Abortion Politics Out of the Pro-Information Movement
http://www.thismess.net/2014/06/keep-abortion-politics-out-of-pro.html
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